‘One small, positive blog post in the morning can change your day’. 

Today I have decided to blog as much as possible for two reasons.

  1. To set myself a challenge
  2. To spread awareness of anxiety.

I will blog all day, I intend to refresh and remind people what I blog about, spread awareness of anxiety, have a laugh and maybe throw a few beauty tips in too! I will post pictures and give ideas to help distract people from anxiety, panic and worry.

Now take a look at this old photo. Here I am young with not a care in the world listening to my music!! First tip of the day is to dig out old pictures! You could spend hours looking through pictures and smiling at the memories, this will distract you from anxiety and encourage you to embrace all the good times 😊

Another tip taken from the photo, listen to music 🎵 I have clearly loved listening to music from a young age. Music can help distract you from everything for a while. I occasionally put my headphones in while pottering around in the house. Music can help you reflect and gives you time out to think! Start by downloading an uplifting playlist heres a few tunes from mine.

  1. Amazed- Lonestar
  2.  My girl-Temptations
  3. Mirrors- Justin Timberlake 
  4. A sky full of stars- Coldplay

Now get your photos out pop your headphones in and have a wonderful day 🎧🎵😊

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Don’t look back, you’re not going that way…

This week has been hectic for me, turning 27 over a week ago, moving back home on my birthday, rehoming my dog twice and trying to finish Uni work. But I have managed and I have to admit i’ve had help from a very lovely person. As soon as it is I have met somebody else and knew him before the break up. I have heard comments of ‘oohh quite soon isn’t it’ and ‘is this a rebound’. But I genuinely don’t agree with either comments, for once I feel excited, and happy. I think I also know why.. I believe I was over my previous relationship before it ended, I think I had cried my fair share of tears until I couldn’t cry anymore. I just needed to see that this couldn’t go on anymore, and I did. 

Thanks (withheld name) you have seen me at my lowest, you accepted my anxiety straight away as you witnessed me at my worst. You held me when I thought I made a mistake leaving him, you comforted me when I had endless rants. You helped me through this, you made me laugh and made me feel wanted again and for that I am grateful.

I don’t care if people think its too soon, I am happy that someone seems to treasure me and cares. Oh and one more thing, thank you to my ex for appearing on tinder which I discovered through a friend, you have just confirmed I made the right decision! 

Me, stripped down

A very honest and open account of my looks and body!

I love a good picture of myself (very vain I know). When someone takes a pic of me I like to makesure it gets me at a good angle and sometimes not looking at the camera. In todays society women have a pressure to look a certain way with make up ‘on point’, the latest fashion and have time to keep that bod in check. One thing I am not is fake, my hair is naturally curly and frizzy, I used to exercise all the time, and cannot afford designer clothes. My confidence on the whole is low which looking at my pictures you wouldnt think so. I am not great at doing make up, I can do the basics but you will never catch me watching make up tutorials ever, I cannot think of anything worse and am not afraid to admit it! I love having my hair coloured and will leave it natural sometimes to maintain the condition. One tip for curly haired ladies, use sea salt spray, I swear by Charles Worthington style setter sea salt spray. It leaves your hair looking less frizzy and defines the curls. Most of the time I straighten my hair but always use a deep conditioning mask twice a week.

 I have to say I am grateful for my sisters one is good at make up and the other hair, so occasionally I do look glam thanks to them!

Still my confidence is generally low, even though my body isn’t that bad it could do with some toning up definately! I used to go to the gym four times a week then swim for half an hour after, but I have to be honest I hated it and was bored. When I moved in with my partner I didn’t join a gym as they were so expensive, instead I went running and enjoyed this as I keep fit while my mind is able to be free from srress and worry. I still run now and also walk my puppy archie at least once a day.

I am aware of my appearence and try to look after my skin. I get spots like everybody else and hate them! One thing I do splurge on is a good foundation, I use double wear by estee lauder for a long lasting finish.

So that has been an overview of my body, hair and looks. Overall my confidence is growing steadily and although I would change lots about my appearence, I am grateful for my natural hair and my lack of make up!!

One tip for you all put positive quotes on every mirror you own 😍

‘You cannot stop the waves, but you can learn to surf’. 

Diary entry: 14th August 17

My next few blogs will be full of holiday pictures and will probably drive you mad. But I need to point out that although i’m sunning myself and indulging in so much greek food, I am still anxious. We all go on holiday for a break to rest and recharge, and although I am resting, my worries are never far. 

My worries include: will I pass university? Will I get a job? Will I ever be successful? I wish I didn’t worry like this, I wish that I didn’t have to remember to take my medication while on holiday. But actually I have realised that all these worries are not necessary, what happens will soon unfold and for now I will ride the waves and embrace the current moments. (Hence getting all dressed up and going for a dip on the sea) 🙈

I love the sea 😊🌊 Embrace the waves!!

‘From the little spark, may burst a mighty flame’. 

I remember a previous counsellor that gave me an activity to carry out. Ive always found counselling hard and could never open up about my anxieties but different counsellors have a variety of methods which they can suggest. My task was to write down my worries or fears, read through them think about them then once you have exhausted the list… Burn it and forget about the list and the worries. This helps me an awful lot during the real dark times. I’m not saying this will solve worries but it mentally and physically erases them. Then who knows what a spark could create when you return to your normal, strong self!

Its been a while…

Firstly I apologise for starting this blog then being completely silent since. Unfortunately about three weeks ago I had a nervous breakdown, I felt anxious and nervous (all the time) therefore making me feel drained and tired (all the time). During this time I had panic attacks, wasn’t sleeping, sweating, crying and not eating.

I have needed time away from placement/university, my medication has been increased and I have had to consider my coping strategies. Alongside all this I have had people say things that need some reflection ‘you were fine last week’ ‘I don’t think you had a breakdown’ the worst one was ‘you just need to relax’. The response in my head was this…

Was I really fine last week? (No I hid it well) I did have a breakdown (chances are you don’t believe me as 1. You didn’t see me and 2. I seem ‘fine’ now. And relax?! I wish I could.

 After this what I now refer to as a ‘wobble’ that I had two weeks ago, I needed to consider lots of things to help me. Firstly I made myself get out of bed at a reasonable time (which was difficult during my wobble). I would then walk my dog, carry on with chores and I would relax. Either in the bath, or just sitting down and taking time to process my thoughts. I have had kind words from people I rarely talk to and i’ve been able to see who is close to me, but have not given me much thought, which is a shame.

Although I am not completely recovered yet, I am getting their and I am figuring out what works for me. I hope I can reach out to at least one person who is struggling, I will help, sympathise and try to make you smile.

If I can get through this ‘wobble’ so can you!

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