A small update on me!!
This picture was taken in the first year of my nursing degree, and Saturday was last ever shift as a student nurse!! I am very proud now to have completely finished my children’s nursing degree, this has been a hard three years but I have now get there and have a good view of the future ahead of me.
Today I have been to University to take in all my assessment documents from the three years, this has felt like relief to have achieved so much, even when I didn’t think I would complete at all. I have got through this training by support from family and friends who I couldn’t thank enough for their support. I also have to say writing this blog has helped keep me focused and overcome issues that I did have, writing this blog as well as reading other blog posts has gave me clarification that even with anxiety you can still overcome challenges which will help shape your future. All the positive encouragement will now inspire me to find a job which I will continue to flourish in.
This is a gift from my Mum, a teddy made from my Uniform!!
It has took me a long time to get here and its been a rollercoaster of a journey.. but on Friday night I was signed off as a children’s nurse! I have finally got there after months of uncertainty I have done it. I still have 3 shifts to complete but the hard work is over as I have been signed off as a competent nurse. This is a proud moment for me as during second year I really hit rock bottom and third year hasn’t been a walk in the park either. Although in my final year I have learnt that sometimes I believe in myself, when I can do things in my own time and my own way. A lesson I will also take with me is to remember that every nurse has had to go through this learning journey and we should all support students as much as we can, this is something I intend to do. But for now i’m going to finish these last few shifts then decide where I want to work as a newly qualified children’s nurse. 😊📚🏥🎓
For the first time in a long time I genuinely feel happy and a little more confident. Returning to the Neonatal unit for the last time filled me with nerves. This time round has been different, i’ve got two supportive mentors who are helping me get through this final stretch. I am taking all opportunities available to me, including working with midwives or with advanced neonatal nurse practitioners. I am beginning to flourish not just as a childrens nurse but as a person. Its a nice feeling to be motivated again and an even better feeling to see an increase in my confidence. Yes, I still have days where i’m anxious and quiet but I still strive to see the good in every day. I have finally surrounded myself with good people who want the best for me, who see my potential and push me to go further. These people will never know how grateful I am for their kind thoughts and caring nature. I now do not feel alone, which is where my confidence is coming from. I have remembered who I am, where I want to be and who I need for this journey!! 😘
P.S.. Proud moment.. I delivered my first baby on mothers day and handed the baby to a proud Mummy and Daddy 😍👶
An update on me, Kirsty thought..
So, i’ve been quiet again lately and quite busy. Firstly the good news.. I won my appeal at University which means I’m allowed to return and finish my placement. However in my time off I have considered working abroad for 6 months or so. My intentions are to complete my degree and then maybe work away with a reputable company.
In other news my anxiety seems to be wearing me down, I feel like sleeping all the time, I nap for hours on end. I’m trying to not nap by walking the dog, or reading or just doing things on the internet. One more positive I have been working on is, documenting 3 positives from each day, even simple tasks that I have completed including walking the dog or hoovering. These help me see that I have done something in each day and not just slept the day away.
Overall i’m happy that I can note the positives in each day, and would recommend other people do this as well. It helps if you are having a bad day to be able to pull out the positives even if you really struggle to think of any.
This post is just for a bit of fun but with a message behind it. In comparison to humans, penguins have a light and a dark side. My light side is my ability to make people laugh and smile, my dark side is obviously my anxiety. My dark side is gloomy and dull, but my light side helps me remain positive and helps me see the good in everyday. Hence the above quote relating to my current attempts to remain positive, looking at the stars instead of the dark. Finding a positive on dark days even the slightest thing, can help you keep the negatives at bay and not at the forefront of your mind.
My advice for today.. look for the stars!! ⭐🌟⭐🌟🐧🐧🐧
Happy new year!! Firstly there will be No ‘new year new me’ from me.. I will still be the same miserable, worried and worked up little woman I was last year. Just perhaps with a few more goals in place. And no I don’t believe I will see a fast imcrease in my confidence, as I know things take work, but heres my first simple goals.
- I will complete my nursing degree
- Will choose an exercise class and stick to it.
- Drink less coffee!!
If i’m honest the 3rd goal is going relatively well. I blame coffee for my lack of sleep, and my random bouts of energy that occur after each mug. I started by setting myself an initial goal first, for example for the coffee goal I decided that for every cup I had, would be followed by two glasses of water!! This has proved successful as I have had no coffee now for three days.
My nursing degree goal will be discussed on a post coming up shortly! And my exercise goal, well we will just see. I intend to join a class not just for exercises but for social purposes too, meeting new people with similar interests can be daunting for me, but (along with my confidence) is something that can be worked upon. This gradual process of completing goals will hopefully enable my confidence to build slowly. Bearing this in mind make your goals achievable, and remember you won’t be cartwheeling with joy every day but at least smile 😊
2018 i’m ready for you 💁
I havent wrote for a while and I have to be honest I have been resting. I am so tired from this years placement and University that ive been shattered. At the beginning of this year I started aerial silks, then I didnt go for a while. Just over a week ago I went to a class again and really enjoyed it. I remembered most of the moved and although I ached a lot it was good to exercise again!
Another point to raise is that I have been able to find myself again, I have been able to be happy again and find more confidence in myself. Due to this I have found the f.l.y abbreviation which made me smile when I discovered it, i’ve realised now my confidence is getting there i’m being to like myself again.. and beginning to fly 😊 literally 😊